While the journal is public, this is the first time I've had a journal that none of my friends know about. It is my attempt to confess, to put my thoughts to words. I want to know myself. I forgot who I was once, and allowed it.

I know it's silly and possibly childish, but I'm trying to figure out how I ended up at this point in my life, what's caused my actions, why my brain works the way it does, where exactly I broke. If I broke myself or if someone else broke me. I feel bad about all of it, and I want to possibly piece things together.